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December 31st, 2009 (12:22 am)

never anythings an overestimation.... for the sake of ego, or for the pure sake of ego death, the word in focus is underestimation...
a word of mouth, ......................................................
the hard kiss of datura, i always say, dont ever go near that jimsons weeddd !
its friends no better.
in a better train of thought.
id give all a warning to those interested;
~never~a~good~idea~ if you value the warmth of reality
the wrong way to go upon ego death, more of a, heres a taste of hell
the inability to be able to distinguish the differences between imagination and reality get frightening , more so when you have no control at all and the guide isnt the right path.
im just writing this to heal myself a bit, as writing does. it got all so bad so fast. in the back of everything is where the void lies and its just stays there. you cant ignore such a burden, yet ever so faint. ..........................................
i have yet to expand and explore, but heres ideals in a splatter.
12- 120mg bentyl:
the walls cave in and breathe while motions get heavy and voices fill up wherever it is, its companion are spiders who find themselves in wrong places, next to the gel aura of things. everythings real. its not in your head. its all real and happening. thanks for the paranoia
dfsfl..........................................

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afkl;

December 30th, 2009 (11:59 pm)

dsf.adfs....

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.......................................despondent of an unkept mind

December 30th, 2009 (11:56 pm)

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December 24th, 2009 (01:16 pm)

nazi punks fuck off

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December 24th, 2009 (01:13 pm)

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|_| \__/ |_| ERRY CHRISTMAS. EVE

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December 6th, 2009 (10:21 pm)

being a hippie is so tempting
and i like to party with them >:}
cokes a silly drug... *shoot*

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i call this one: opiate cravings

November 17th, 2009 (07:54 pm)

all the multitude of minuscule layers that had made up my external being thrashed off into a nil by all the reasons i've chosen to caress the desires (or rather- necessities) of the weak spirit- my internal existence. In exchange, for the safety that no eyes wander for but mine

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November 12th, 2009 (08:40 pm)

life is life! you cant over think it, there's nothing hidden in between those lines
its simple... but of course, our minds cant comprehend simplicity and thus convert it into a mess.. prime example, muah!
oh now sometimes i do forget dear...... the cause of all problems
my mind, turns things into problems because i must live in the eye of the storm AH oh unneccessary it is !

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November 9th, 2009 (12:10 am)

PEOPLE ARE SO STUPID

arg the frustration! the anger! where's my codeine......

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November 8th, 2009 (10:36 pm)

YOU KNOW theres onnly a certain point in which ill keep myself faithful.. but there comes a time when i have to decide that i cant keep missing oppourtunities over a guy whos in jail because he's a dumbass..
i mean, i like him, i really like him, and it just sucks too much.
i want to get over it,r eally, but its hard
and i just become desperate when i try to forget about it
drugs dont help nor do other guys
"sorry, i cant hang with you because i like a guy who's in jail and may never see him within a year"
its not even like we're that committed to each other, thing is, i have no idea how mutual the feelings are.
but then again, whenever i try to move on i just cant get my head out of respective ideas.
i just cant stay focused in that way
i guess it's just gonna be a time in my life where a dark cloud rose over the seas and hid the sun at it's prime